My Week...and Maybe Some Other Stuff. (Wait, I Remember What I Wanted to Talk About.)

(If you'd rather not read all this, Skip to the paragraph entiteled, THE IMPORTANT PART.)

If you haven't read my other post yet, (which contains part of a story) then you should know that I moved! YAAAAAY! This is great for a few reasons.

1. I'm still here, and I'm planning on staying with the way life's going.
2. I get to keep my cat.
3. I'm closer to the school.
4. THE APPLIANCES ACTUALLY WORK!

Can you tell I'm excited? Our last dishwasher did the job equivalent to putting the dirty dishes in a bowl full of water then shaking it. Because of this, we had to wash them by hand. But now, WE DON'T!! Also, the lights were messed up. They either stayed on, wouldn't turn off, or they would come back on after a while. The plumbing was also bad. (It caused a lot of angry outbursts.) The only errors in this house that we've found are bad doorknobs and a scary light fixture. We put a light-bulb in it and it showered sparks when we turned it on. Oh well. At least it didn't explode like in the last house. (I'm serious about that. Light-bulbs really did explode in a light fixture.) So far, we've just got a few more loads to do and organize. I'll be so glad when it's over too. Work just ain't the way our family bonds. But anyway, I live a block below the school now.

Before I get to the important section, I'm gonna let of a little depressing steam. MY LAPTOP IS DEAD! AUGH! It will no longer turn on and I have to get a new one. Right now, I''m using my mom's laptop which has a... well, CRAPPY track-pad. I have to use a mouse but I ain't use to that, so I keep using the pad. The bright side is that my dad has an old laptop that I can buy, except I think it has this same pad. Oh well. That's better than no computer, and I'm also glad that I can use this computer freely right now.

Oh, and I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but I'm selling legos too.

Okay, now I'll get to THE IMPORTANT PART.

If you were in seminary, you might have done a certain activity. If you were in Brother Wood's class, (which I know you were, Serena) you most certainly did this activity. We each got a name tag, swapped it with an unknown person, and we had to find out who we had. After we found out, we listed some spiritual talents that  this person had. When I received my card back, I was a little- no REALLY bewildered. Some of the things listed there were not things I thought I really showed enough or at all. I believe I have these traits, but I didn't know if they were recognizable all the time, and the person who wrote them didn't really talk to me much. Here's what she wrote-

- Listening
- Being kind to others
- Accepting people
- Being able to love others
- Being able to see truth
- Being able to believe and understand
- Perseverance
- Being optimistic, look @ the brightside. (She wrote it that way.)

Okay, I know that I'm a pretty good listener. In some cases, I can be pretty terrible, but listening to teachers/friends is not a problem.

THIS is where it started to be surprising. I know I'm a kind person. I'm not like an angel or as kind as a few others I've met, but I'm pretty dang kind. Anyone could tell you that. The problem is is that  I don't show it that often as I see it. I have a kind attitude, but as for out-going kindness, I'm a little rough around the edges. So I wondered how in the world this person could see that.
I'm also an accepting person. I, like anyone, will have those biased thoughts on occasion, but I immediately push them from my mind because I know they're not true. So I don't really try to label anyone. I don't care what disease or disorder you have, I don't care what gender you are, I don't care what race you are, ect, ect. Again though, I don't know how she could see that and I can't think of any time she could.

I'm 100 percent sure I can be loving to other people, but I don't go out of my way to talk to the lonely, or anybody for that matter because I'm to dang shy. I do talk in groups and I do talk to those sitting around me in class. But I've never gone up to someone and said "Hey ******, how are you?" When it's a one-on-one conversation, I'm either sitting by that person or they've come up to me and started talking. (So if any of you wonder why I don't really talk to between classes, that's why. I'm working on it though.)

Another thing is that I don't remember the last time I've comforted someone who's been sad. It's not that I  see a crying person every day, but I swear that I've seen the same girl twice in tears and I've been to much of a wimp to just go say to her "Hey, is anything wrong? Can I help you in any way?" I curse myself for not doing so. I have the compassion, it's just that some stupid wall keeps me from doing it. So that again makes me wonder how she could possibly see that.

And how in the world could she say I can see truth? Since when have I shown that? Same with believing, understanding, and persevering. I think I can see a little more clearer than some people I know. (I'm mostly referring to guys, sadly.) I guess I think I have a slight ability to understand, and as for persevering, I'm not sure. I can get distracted sometimes.

I think she would be able to see my optimism, because I do speak enough to see that...I think. Do I?

I think I know who I am. But who do you think I am? Was she right in her list? Was she that observant? Or was she coming up with a few fillers? Both maybe? Was I right in what I said, or do you think otherwise? Do I seem to act a little "cold" to you people sometimes? Am I rude in any way? I would actually like to know. (Possibly by commenting or even telling me to my face, if you feel like it.) And don't be afraid to offend me. I won't get mad or depressed. I just want to improve myself. (And plus I've been pondering this subject since second term and finally decided I had enough to post it.)

Finally, while we're on the subject of character, I want to shift the subject to you people. (It's nice to hear a compliment from someone once in awhile, don't you think?)

(For some reason, I always get the feeling that somebody's going to think I'm creepy or weird or whatever when I talk about something like this. So if I am, I would DEFINITELY like to know.)

Serena, you are an awesome person to be around. You're a nice (and funny : ) person to talk too. You are also a great friend. (I don't know if you see me as one, but I do.)

Alex, I don't even have a class with you, but I did at one time and it was nice to talk to you too. And I can tell from your writing that you're a good person and you can count me a friend. (Oh, and read my response to you on my last post. I do have some books.)

Bradley, I don't know if you read this all the time, but if you do, you should know that you're a friend as well.

Anybody else that happens to read this, just know that you're frickin' amazing.

Bye now. Hope I didn't sound weird. See you later!